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Thursday, December 17, 2009

so bitter
it never hits me til she left
imagine the half empty room with teh empty bed
whenever i go over to aunt's, i won't be able to see her

though shes in such predicament
im powerless to do anything to help
but i know she cares about me a lot
she knows wat im up to
even cares enough, think so far ahead about my graduation

so bitter
so powerless
so useless
im such a douche
i'm sorry


Saturday, November 07, 2009

whoaa.. time flies, we are already more than half way done w/ the semester
life is so awesome despite all the midterms, problem sets, and projects
this semester has been a lot of fun and i totally cherish the people i have met in these 4 yrs
in just a month and half, i will be able to re-visit the old home town
and i can't even describe how excited i am
in the midst of all expectations, hype, excitements
i should take a moment to settle my thoughts and let myself to immerse into the presence
enjoy the wonderful life and taste every single bit of it
it's almost like have never felt so 幸福 and content with life
such sense of self fulfillment is greater than any materialistic satisfaction and gain from a love relationship (though i might be bias right now)
if we project this into our future
we will experience constant challenge, fulfillment, disappointment and happiness
but if we are able to take a step back and enjoy what you have achieved
life is really wonderful
ahhh! i can't wait to change the world some days!!


Sunday, October 04, 2009

oh man
money -- MOOLA has so much influence over our lives
it can change our career, significant other, expected future,
sometimes you hear about how materialistic rich of a life someone lives by having certain careers
though the usually you may not envy those stories as much
but you may still be inevitably be bought into the effect of money
how else can you get a 500 bucks of dinner or buy a chanel bag based on the mood of your day
how else can you go vacationing and stay at luxurious hotels w/o having to save every penny you can in your everyday life
how else can you....
all the success, drive, polish outside, wealth, materialistic wants,
don't you wonder how you are underachieving for a sec or two?
but outside of all those, were you pursuing happiness at the same time?
can we measure happiness simply through the amount of money spent considering if we have family love and all that?
are the lives that we live in so shallow?
oh and then some people claim that as long as you do something you like, career wise, you will be happy
how to judge if the work you do is really satisfying and impactful?
after a few years of work, you may start to question what are you doing with your life
ultimately, how do you value if you are living a good and meaningful life?


Wednesday, September 30, 2009

I'm really glad to have the friends that I have now
Sometimes, when thinking back 4 yrs of college, I encountered so many different types of people and certainly, I learned from them and also learned to value friendship differently
Sometimes, people are just very self-centered and think that the world evolves around them, but you know what, respect others in order to gain respect for yourself
We have grown to see all sides of people, and we just kind of learn to take it and move on
Just learn to see how people really are
For those who don't hold the same values as we do, there's no need that I have to agree with you
But sometimes you really wonder, they definitely succeeded in mending a relationship with you for a while and it's such a shame
But you know what, different people go different ways
Let's just move on..
it's life, we will see many of these in the future


Wednesday, September 23, 2009

Gahh

8 am classes are so deadly..

I hate it when my schedule can never be set b/c the waitlist will never ever be taken care of
There's no reason a senior should be on the waitlist for 5 weeks and still waiting to be enrolled
shoot me now
time to get a drink to relieve all that anger.. jk



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